Currently Listening Twilight of the Gods By Bathory see related

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Currently Listening The Unraveling By Rise Against see related

"Hell is veiled in delights, and Heaven in hardships and miseries."

I truely realize that everything that immediately gives pleasure is usually harmful to a person while those things that take hard work and time give the best benefits.   The work of wrong is always so easy, lust, greed, desires, all of those take no effort and seem like they are so sweet but in the end they are bitter and cause harm.  The works of good that seem so hard like charity, forgiveness, and love, are difficult but give so much more reward in the end, they seem like bitterness but they are actually sweet treats in hiding. 

I feel both pleased and saddened at the same time today.  I personally should be happy, but I have events on my mind that bring me almost to tears just thinking of them.  I have to let go if I ever want to be happy, but I feel like I can't.  I just wish that everything could be right, but nothing seems to ever go for the best, we sometimes take the easy route and never the best one.

Currently Reading The Spirit of Reiki (Shangri-La Series) By W. Luebeck, F.A. Petter, W.L. Rand, Frank Arjava Petter see related

Today was my first day back at work up at Snow Creek.  I teach skiing every winter up there; I've been skiing at Snow Creek since I was three.  This year I'm working thrusday nights, saturday mornings, and sunday mornings.  I taught for three hours today and I didn't mind doing it, I liked the change from the normal routine of sundays.

Last night was Winter Formal at Lawrence High, I had mixed feelings about it and because of that I'm not going to go too into it.  I had a decent time and I had a good talk with Cameron H. on the way home.  I'm very happy I have him as a best friend as he always is grounded with his logic, something I lack quite a bit.

I had a good long talk tonight with someone who I think highly of.  I really enjoyed getting to speak to her for longer than a few minutes.  That was pretty much the big event of my evening. 

I don't have anything going on for the rest of the night, I will probably head to bed at a reasonable time.  I just felt like I needed to post on my Xanga since it has been a few days.  I do feel like I wish I could start over in some areas of my life, I just wish I had a fresh start.

Currently Reading The Relaxation Response By Herbert Benson, Miriam Z. Klipper see related

"There are three ways of knowing a thing.  Take for instance a flame.  One can be told of the flame, one can see the flame with his own eyes, and finally one can reach out and be burned by it." - Sufi metaphor

The parts of my life which seemed so vague and unsure seem to finally be clearing up.  I can finally realize the problems and see them for what they really are and untie them.  I have been in a haze for the last two months but yesterday something seemed to finally click in and I realized that the problems that I tried to solved were not mine even to begin with.  I have known a man should not try to hold up a mountain for that is what the ground is for, and the message of that phrase truely shines through now.

School is well just as always, I feel a new spring in my step though.  I am glad I finally figured out my problems, and I can go about my way living life to the best as I know.

Currently Watching The Royal Tenenbaums (The Criterion Collection) By Gene Hackman, Gwyneth Paltrow see related

Today was another average monday, the same old routine for school.  I awoke this morning later than I should have due to my own laziness so it was a rush to get to school on time which sadly I did not do.  No trouble came of it, though I wish I could arrive when I was suppose to.

I ate rather healthy today and kept count of all my calories, tonight at the end of my day I have taken in 960 total.  I keep track of the food I eat and make sure the calories aren't hollow so I can get more benefits and help my dieting, though I am cutting my intake too low on certain days.

I really have no more to say as of right now, though I do hope tommorow is more exciting but only in a healthy way and not stressful.